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Yesterday morning I tried running a different route for a change.  I love running at UP. At home naman kasi ang feeling ko. Pero nakakapagod din naman tumakbo and seeing the same things again and again and again…

Voila! 930am…. drive to the nearest park in town, the pride of Vice mayor Planas, the landmark of QC…nonetheless, Quezon Memorial Circle aka Elliptical circle.

It has been years since the last time I went to Elliptical Circle and really looked around the place. The last time I went to QC Circle was for a shooting with the late FPJ. ah..eh… It was also where i first learned to ride a bike. The real one…

Anyhow, just before 10am Jenny and I were already parked inside. Amazing! there are no people at all. It’s indeed more peaceful to run here than in UP especially now that there are classes.

Amazingly as well…It’s freaking’ hot here! The trees do not hover the pathways to shield humans from the sun.

But amazingly again, It was a sight to behold that there are a thousand and one things to do inside this QC memorial circle.

Aside from the kiosks scattered around, as early as 10am, aba! meron ng kakaraoke. There are schedules for ballroom dancing, hip-hop, ballet, Pilate’s, taebo and all that physical stuff.

There’s a rappelling area, seminar rooms, masseuse services, tiangges, plenty of obstacle courses that kids will surely enjoy, slides and see-saws, butterfly house, botanical area, greenhouse, bahay kubos, the restaurants situated at the middle of the place, and a lot more…

What stuck me the most a signage that says ‘ PICHAY FOR SALE’… pichay?! lagot! malamang dito tinanim si pichay dahil hindi natanim sa senado.

If at the past I kept on complaining with the lovers I see in UP. Naku! Dito sankatutak na lovers sila of all shapes and sizes. This again sweet sightings is at the middle of the sun’s heat. nevertheless, they are a sight to behold. Behold kasi napapa-hold ako ng breath pag nakakakita ako ng ganon… (deep breath)

I have to admit that I got confused as to where is the real course for running since it has connected, curvy pathways all over the place… (parang bituka ng manok)…circling circles that has no end and it has no pattern…

Changes can bring something good and something bad. Changes always brings growth. Changes always widens ones horizon. Now I have occulared QC Circle I can come back here next time with my son at a better time.

Maybe, I just need to run around the place once again to be more familiar with it. One thing is for sure there’s so many wonderful things one can see at circle.

I had this enormous craving for ‘dunkin donuts’… deadma sa mga krispy kreme and etc… back to basic ang beauty ko. I want the taste and the smell of dunkin donuts.

In desperation, I started calling friends yesterday to buy me donuts if they were out cause I was immobile yesterday. A good friend bought me donuts pero it was already late when I saw her missed calls and i had to run to a mtg. grrrr!

Eto na! first thing in the morning, I asked the driver to pick up the donuts. yehey! Not only that, by some streak of luck someone sent me a box o bavarian filled donuts… O diba?!

When you ask for it. It will come.

Claim it and it will be given to you.

Little things that makes us smile matter a lot. Sodo not neglect the little things that you can do for others because for you wala lang yun pero sa kanila big thing na pala.

Going back to basic is fun and it reminds me of my younger years…

hay, comes with the food, the taste, the smell, the memories (the good ones ha, kasi the bad ones di ko na ni-rerewind yun at sayang sa tape sa membrane ko)

As i was saying, sit back, relax and go back to the basics…It’s refreshing.

Pisay:

Written and directed by: Aureous Solito

Music: Vince de Jesus

I watched it Tuesday evening 9pm showing at CCP Main Theater.

I remember Aureous during my UP days and I feared him. He had this strong personality in other words ‘ lakas ng dating’ …Todo! He was very outspoken and would share his thoughts,  dreams and vision of what he wanted. First year lang ako nun, bow ako sa kanya. I told myself then..’ iba ito! tapang naman. saka weird’

One day I realized kaya naman pala kami nasa parehong room, tambayan all the time kasi weird din naman ako. Birds of the same feather, tambay together. He had a lot of drawings and comic books na parang ’satanista’ sa paningin ko. Flying creatures, monsters, atomic hi-tech equipments scribbled on his notebook that would really draw anyones attention because it was done beautifully…. Weird, snobbish, moody… artist?! In my thoughts I considered Aureous as a volcano ready to errupt, gaining more heat and lava then for the big explosion. Ang dami niyang ideas. Sa isang conversation naka-5 concept na siya. He wanted to do many things. So much energy, So much passion, so much fire…(naks..parang love scene na)

True enough! He had so much ideas bottled up inside him. So coke pala siya… Kasi he was able to express himself even before Pisay and his works acknowledged and appreciated. Parang softdrinks di pwedeng dire=diretso baka di mo kayanin sa lakas ng ’spirit’. But everytime one has a gulp of the drink ’sakto’ naman.

Aureous has a friend na naging crush ko pa, Paul Morales. Galing kasi sumayaw, singkit, ganda ng pwet and had so much authority and command when he talks. There was Clint another guy in their group that had the same aura pero sosyal naman. Even on regular hectic, sunny, rehearsal days-slacks ang suot niya. Sosyal but really charming and funny. Paul Morales is part of the Production of Pisay as Executive Producer. Clint is now based in New York and hailed as one of the Top Production Designers.

Happy to remeber the ’siga’ people of theater during my 1st year. Eventually, we all gelled together. Weird kasi kaming lahat.

After watching Pisay. i wanted to see more films of different kinds, genres, approach, fresh cutting, fresh ideas, raw talents… and again heto na naman ako. Going back to CCP made me feel the old passionate candy that I was with the work that I do.

Wednesday: Cinemalaya Marathon starting at 1245pm: Short film B, 330pm: Tribu, 615pm Gulong, 9pm Endo (wow marathon talaga kami ni andoy ranay and joey ting) Eugene Domingo, Dante Garcia, Candace and Shantel joined us for the 330pm showing. Amazing!

O diba?! Prof Joey Ting and  Director Andoy Ranay are my film buddies for cinemalaya. Si andoy nga di pa kami tapos for the days schedule already checking on the next days sched.

I enjoyed Cinemalaya at CCP for so many reasons other than the film itself or the real purpose why I came there. Yes. I went to CCP to see good, new, innovative films of this generation with different approach. But other than that I enjoyed

1. The company of my friends. The bonding that we had is simple yet kapit na kapit.

2. I enjoyed the crowd. I enjoyed being a part of an enthusiastic, hopeful, passionate, and interested crowd willing to see ways and be part of the ways to help improve our industry. The crowd of achievers, motivators, front liners, trend setters, concept makers of this industry.

3. I enjoyed the ambiance of CCP. One can see that what used to be a fiery red carpet that sprawls around CCP is now a fading light red color. On the other hand, I find those faded washed out carpet very elegant in my sight and very historic at the same time. These is the same carpet where the bright minds converge to talk.

4. I enjoyed life and seeing life at CCP. yes. I enjoyed and celebrated life per se with the talents bestowed to each person involved in the making of each film. And CCP lobby is filled with people. There is a lot of people at CCP… at the cultural center of the philippines… meaning our culture has a very big chance of being alive amongst us Filipinos.

There was a lot of old faces that brings back old memories. Old spots that bring back old situations. Old scars that comes from old hurts…That I faced when I was there. I faced the past with my new reinvented self with dignity and grace from God.

5. I enjoyed the smell of CCP and the ambiance of CCP. Kahit naka-tsinelas ka at nasa CCP ka…tanggap yun dahil artist ka. Kung naka heels ka at nasa CCP ka,.. tanggap yun kasi artistic ka at maarteng artist ka. Kung naka tapak ka at nasa CCP ka…tanggap yun dahil mahirap na artist ka… Basta nasa CCP ka…artistic ka. at yun din ang feeling mo sa mga tao sa paligid mo. artistic.

6. I enjoyed people watching.

7. I enjoyed the simplicity of my day. I know how my day was going to start. I knew how it would fow but I wasn’t sure if what was going to happen in between… I left it all in God’s hand to fill up my loopholes. Those loopholes brings me excitement and gives me surprises that I am thankful for.

8. I enjoyed seeing familiar faces. long lost friends…

The films of course I enjoyed it. But more than that I enjoyed the processing of doing this Marathon.

Cimelaya will be showing at CCP till Sat na lang kaya if you want to see things differently…I suggest that you watch the films included in cinemalaya…. in fairness nga naman. sa totoo lang kahit walang in fairness watch niyo sila.

You might be asking and wondering where are my reviews about the film that I have watched. Check niyo sa reviews.

All I can say is… Cinemalaya freed me from my bondage’s that staggered my growth as an artist and person.

12nn… on the peak of the sun’s heat…

Wheatberry at Sct. Castor: Candy Pangilinan meets with the press.

I have a confession to make…. It’s not that I don’t like presscons, but it’s not also something that I am very excited to have or go to.

That is one very unfair fact that I need to ask every press person an apology for. I don’t hate them. It’s not that. There was just this brainwashed mentality that they can actually be very cruel and rude to you. Narrow minded stupid of me to be stucked with that idea. I forgot that the definition could actually pass for anyone, any human being  of any profession.

Yes they can be really be harsh… but they can really be honest.  Only recently did I realized that honesty can be harsh with some people. Honesty can be a painful fact. It really depends on how one reacts/response to such realities. They (press) can also be very nice and could actually be a friend and go beyond professions and be simply human beings.

This again is built with Honesty.

Today I therefore conclude that ‘Honesty indeed is the best policy’. Going back to the basics of life’s instructions makes life simpler.

Today I met with the press again. Today I felt more at ease. Today I felt free from the ‘what will they think’, ‘what should I say’, ‘what’s the best’…Today I was candid and I was me. Today I felt free from all my fears and mentalities of who and what press people are…because today I realized that I have built good relationships with these people because I was always very open with them and very straight with my answers. Today I realized that I have in so many ways used the PRESS to relay my thoughts and emotions to people and to myself.

That I have to admit several times I catch myself listening to myself as I speak and share my thoughts…weird ba? Senya…pero yun po ang totoo…

Mas naapreciate talaga ng press, di lang ng press ng tao (kahit sino man siya) ang sincerity and candidness. At yun na yun ako today! maybe it comes with the being at peace with oneself, it does follow that you becomes at peace and at ease with others.

I candidly told the press ‘naku, gandahan niyo write ups ko ha! kailangan ko ng trabaho, kailangan ko ng mga projects at marami akong babayaran. Saka wag na natin masyado pag-usapan ang asawa ko baka siya pa ang magka-project’…In Humility comes the joy and candidness. Totoo naman ang lahat ng sinabi ko.

Todays’ presscon was no PRESSure, It did not dePRESS me or rePRESS me of my feelings and thoughts… Actually, today they imPRESSed me with the way they deal with each other, with me, with the questions they asked and the way we treated each other had evolved to something more personal, more sincere…(di ko alam ang tamang words to describe it) Basta today was a wonderful lunch among friends.

I have never thanked these friends of mine.

These friends that have often been judged, misjudged, used and abused.

Well sa ngayon, di ko naman sila ma-treat ng bonggang bongga pa at marami nga akong babayarin kaya pagdadasal ko na lang kayo. Wag naman kayo mag-alalala at sincere naman ako sa praying ko lately.

To all the press who came for my presscon today: Many thanks. To all the press who helped me all these years: many thanks again. To all the press that likes and dislikes me: Thanks as well. To all the press that had treated me more than colleagues but friends if not friends…kahit muntik ng maging friend…thanks so much because today I felt that.